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[01 Dec 2005|08:51pm]
Yeah. So, this is an
update.
It'll involve a lot of rambling.
Don't feel obligated to comment.
I just feel like rambling.
Everyone has to do it once in a while, don't they?

[OOC. Mental fits my current mentality. So that will be the update. Shut up, and hit the red X on the side of the page if it bothers you at all. <3]

It's cold here, It's always been so cold here.
Not just tempeture wise either. I mean, the people themsleves are so cold.
They just don't care.
I know. Newsflash, Sebastian. No one gives a shit anymore.
Apathy's on the rise, and no one cares.
Well. That's not entirely true.
Kamaria.
Ka.ma.ria.
K.-A.-M.-A.-R.-I.-A.-.
Hope do you spell "hope"?
Kamaria.

Don't say anything.
Don't say a fucking word.
I'm not entirely sane, I know,
the doctors are right, in a way.
In. a. way.
Meaning. They're not entirely right.
I'm not completly out of it.
Just a bit abnormal, but aren't we all at some point or another?

Last night, I got to do nothing, but lay in that bed,
with those damn white sheets,
staring at the patches of darkness that likes to lurk in corners,
and stretch it's winding fingers towards me.
I hate it.
I hate this place.
But..
Kamaria
...
I can't leave.

My head hurts.
I'm not sure why,
but I can practicly feel a vein throbbing in my temple.
Maybe, it's telling me, to stop.
To stop thinking.
To stop breathing.
To stop living.
Or, I could just be getting a headache from the screams coming down the hall.

Did I ever mention that?
The worst part of this place,
The screams.

Someone help me?
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[29 Sep 2005|12:09am]
A song.Collapse )
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Different times. >>; [05 May 2005|06:07pm]
1870, yeah, you know what time this should be.

What's it like to be normal? Like everyone else.. Not deformed inside and out and unable to truly experiance this thing that people speak of. This thing called 'love'.. Or the feeling of being loved by another. All because of.. damnedable decaying corpse that I have the audacity to call my 'body'.. But enought about that.. I need to make a few comments about Kamaria.. She's truly beautiful.. and she sings like an angel.. She's kind too.. too kind really... It's hard to bare...... I don't think I've experianced kindness firsthand.. so maybe I'm just not used to it.. -shrug- Well..anyway.. Her and I went up on the roof the other day.. In the light.. I felt like such a fool.. I hadn't expected the light to be so painful. I suppose I just didn't remember it's full power... This is enough for now.. I'm rambling and no one enjoys a rambler.

Older Future. You'll figure out which one if you read on. heh.

Kami came back. ^-^;; Which is good, for more than one reason. I was spazzing pretty badly without her.. Heh, just like me, eh? I've always been dependant on her to get me through the day... But now, she's back, and we've been discussing marriage.. Heh.. I actually want to get married.. ^-^; Like Dai said, I'm growing up.
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[12 Apr 2005|10:57am]
DisorderRating
Paranoid Disorder:High
Schizoid Disorder:High
Schizotypal Disorder:High
Antisocial Disorder:High
Borderline Disorder:Very High
Histrionic Disorder:Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:High
Avoidant Disorder:Very High
Dependent Disorder:Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:Low

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --
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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScore
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)Extreme
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very High
Level 7 (Violent)Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)Extreme
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Extreme

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OOC: HOLY SHIT! I'M A LEVEL HIGHER THAN SPIKE IN HELL! O_O;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; I didn't think that was possible.
I've been to heaven and to hell

[25 Mar 2005|03:59pm]
The No-Hassle Day Planner for the Clinically Insane by MilesToGo13
Username
This morning, you should...go for your morning walk, informing all other passing pedestrians about the importance of proper badger safety.
Then, after lunch...leap on random pedestrians and demand that your need for piggy back rides be sated, lest you kill again.
Dinner will consist of...a very nice pair of shoes with lots of good leather left on them that someone was just going to throw away.
Afterwards, you set off into the evening to...finally get around to starting that suicide cult you've been meaning to get off the ground...which reminds you that you need to pick up some Kool-Aid from the store.
At the height of your madness, you will callseihantai
And the two of you will proceed to...go to a club and have a contest to see who can lick the most unwitting strangers by dawn.
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heh. that was just entertaining.

no real update. sorry.
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future [26 Jan 2005|06:19pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Yeah.. so.. um...

Went to Toshiya's wedding.. Almost got the crap beat out of me by him. ._.; All because of Kami >_>;

But, heh. I didn't. So yeah.. we can just forget about that...

Oh yeah.. heh.. interesting thing.. I have asthma. o.o; or however you spell it.
..

I had an attack at the wedding o.o;;;;;;;... ._.; It was um... kinda....

scary.

.. but let's not talk about that. O_o;...

.... --; Now I have nothing left to say.

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Wooooo. ._.; ((future )) [17 Jan 2005|05:13pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Yeah, woo am update. Why? Because I have nothing better to do >>;

Nothing has realy been going on lately.

Um... Kami got me a cat? Well, she didn't exactly get it for me, what she did was get a cat. >>; a black one and named it Shadow. She said it reminds her of me. ._.; that cat is fucking insane.

I love it.

Anyway, I've been more into drugs lately. I'm not really sure why. Maybe just because I get bored. heh. I'm thinking of calling up some of my ex girlfriends soon. Seeing as I'm not going out with Kam anymore..

But.. well.. I'm not really interested in any of my exs anymore. ._.; <<;; well, none of my slutty exs. o.o;

I suppose I'll stop talking about that. I don't really want to talk about that kinda thing, besides no one really cares, right? Why would they? heh.

Annnnnyway... I'm bored... well, I guess that shows, eh? Because I'm actually updating this fucking thing. I never actually updatew it. I'll throw in a few sentances about what's been going on, then I wander away to find something intertesting to do.

....... Well, at least I'm updating and talking your ears off about non intersting things, instead of getting high or drunk? heh.

Oh, another thing.. I hate Sei. o_o; I know that everyone knows this already but I feel as though I must repeat it every ten minutes or so.

-Yawns- I guess I should be goin' now, leave me som comments, if you do I'll update more? o.o;

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[27 Dec 2004|11:54pm]
http://www-comm.pac.dfo-mpo.gc.ca/publications/whalesdpbook/images/seiwhale.jpg

..muhhahaha?
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different times rolled into one. because I haven't updated for a really long timeXD [12 Dec 2004|04:25pm]
( Military... )
I'm updating. Because I feel like it. Not because certain people have been pressuring me to do so. >_>

Anyway, The boot camp finally is up and running. Although.. it's.. difficult to run. and Kurosawa is no help at all. If anything he's a hinderance. >_< I miust admit, I feel like luring him into my office so I can stick a pencil through his neck >_>

The cadets, seem okay.. No, that's a lie. I hate them. Expecially that Hantai kid. >_< He cut my hair o_o; My.. precious hair... ;_;

Anyway... note to self: ban alcohal from the camp.

It makes certain things.. happen. Things that never should have happened. o_o;

(future)
GO SUICIDE! -cutting motion- =D!

(dead)
Umeko has joined us.. >_>
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( future times o_o; ) [03 Dec 2004|07:19pm]
      
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Future times ^^;; [22 Oct 2004|07:52pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Stuff happened.. A lot of stuff actually.

Ummm.. goin' out with Kami.. yeah. interesting. I know, everyone just reeeaally wants to know this stuff?

Other stuff happened.. but.. yeah.. let's talk about Kami instead?

-nothing left to say- Man.. now I'm all depressed and stuff.

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[09 Oct 2004|09:57pm]
[ mood | bored ]

What does your t-shirt say? by rejektedrockstar
Name
Age
Fav. Color
Gender
Ta-Da
Quiz created with MemeGen!


fucking awesome..
I've been to heaven and to hell

Future times.. dun dun dun [08 Oct 2004|09:56am]
I'm updating now.. because I can. Yeah. Um.. been sick lately.. woo.. I guess.. Heh.. er.. god damn it.. I've got nothing left to say. >_>;
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Future Spike because I'm bored out of my fucking mind. [19 Sep 2004|09:57am]
[ mood | fucking bored ]

Eh, so homecoming's is uh, coming up? I asked Kami, I dunno maybe it was just because she was there? >_>; I'm joking of course. Heh. Anyway, I seriously doubt that homecoming is going to be fun. But whatever, at least I have a date, and that damn Sei doesn't have one. You know why? Because he's a fucking loser. He needs a fucking pipe bomb in his mailbox.. I mean.. No that's what I meant. -_-*

Anyway, Leave comments or whatever you fucking want. I don't care, I'm just writing this because I'm bored.

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to the world you're just one person but to one person you could be the world.. [05 Sep 2004|10:56am]
[ mood | lazy ]

Eh, been a while since I updated huh? I'm too lazy to keep updating this fricking thing >_>;

I guess that sucks for all you people who actually read this? Whatever anyway, a whole lot of shit has been happening lately. But guess what. I'm too lazy to write about them so yeah, whatever.

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meh..I was bored bitches get over it. [03 Aug 2004|04:34am]
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a sprikle of sadness...? -sniffles- did they have to point that out..?
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..... [31 Jul 2004|06:11pm]
....shit.

what the fuck should I say..?

heh..I think I'll leave it up to Kam whether or not anyone should know...

she's probably embaressed about it.

whatever.
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I want to hold you high and steal your pain [28 Jul 2004|12:10am]
[ mood | happy..kinda.. ]

I guess I'm not leaving now...well whatever. it doesn't really matter anyway.
so anyway I guess I've been in a good mood lately? ^_^ that's weird for me..
I told Kami to keep up her guard..to do something to protect herself if that..thing..ever happens to me again, she said she would but I don't thing she was telling the truth..

[1]still aren't sure if there's a devil or God ¤ I've been to heaven and to hell

It's just an ilusion you know..sure you can feel it..but that doesn't mean it's real.. [26 Jul 2004|04:58pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Heh, I've been acting really...odd..for the past few days.

first I went..well..crazy...Yeah, that nearly killed me, all I can remember really is talking about comas and being half asleep.

then I slept for a few days..that was great. but I woke up really sick.. ick.

I guess I'm nicer when I'm sick. o_O no. that doesn't mean that you people can poison my food.
Yes I know that Claudy is thinking something along the lines of 'damn it!' right now.

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You're going to hell. Yeah. I know. Thanks for reminding me. [24 Jul 2004|11:10pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

I think I should run away...far away. Marriage is a scary thing...I don't want to hurt Kami but I'm not right for marriage.

Maybe I'm just afraid of commitment so I'm making up excuses so that I'll feel better about leaving.

It doesn't matter anyway. I can feel my soul slipping into darkness. It won't be too much longer. I guess I should enjoy the time that I have left.

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